This blog is about my childhood dealing with PAS Parental Alienation Syndrome cause by my mother.I am 32 years old now & it still effects my life.To those who say there is no such thing you have no clue what you are talking about or maybe you don't want it to be recognized because you are the one's doing it to your kids.My heart aches for those children that get caught in the middle & are treated like a weapon against their other parent.
I was born & raised in Saint John New Brunswick Canada...I could not have asked for a better dad, I wouldn't want any other dad...When I was little I remember my mom telling me that I would want to play with her ornaments & dad would let me & I guess I use to break them accidentally of course...Mom would always tell me how he let me play with them & that I broke them...Her good expensive ornaments...
Well in grade one is when things went bad for mom & dad, so dad moved out & no matter what mom said she couldn't make me turn against my dad so it has been 33 years since I was born so I sagest mom stop trying to turn me against my dad because it isn't going to happen...Don't get me wrong mom wasn't all bad there were some good memories but too few...
With dad my brother & I came first & with mom well after dad left she went all wired...Instead of being a good mother & just dealing with the break up, getting over it & moving on she had only one thing one her mind & that was to turn my down syndrome brother & I against my dad...This will never work with me & she hates me for that because I will not believe & go along with her lies...Even though she has kidnapped my brothers mind she can not kid nap his heart...
I do wish I could have a relationship with my mom but how can I when she lies not only about my dad but about me...Just because I wouldn't go along with her lies she decided to make up some lies about me...What type of mother does that...For the life of me I can not even begin to understand how a mother or parent can do that to a child...
When I was a little girl & still even now all I wanted was for my mother to just be a mother...I am sorry that dad leaving you cause you such mental disorder that you can not seem to grasp or hold on to reality...But every thing that comes out of your mouth is hurtful lies & how could you expect me to just stand there & let you do it...You could of had my help now that you going through another separation but lying & manipulating are more important to you than your own children...I can see that in your youngest son you already are brain washing him...It is not right no matter how things ended...If you ever decide to get real help maybe then I will talk to you again but if not then I guess we had our last words already...
I will do as I see fit to deal with liars like you. I don't feel one bit sorry for you because all you are is a fucking liar & I hate liars! I have no respect for you at all. You are a idiot. This is a blog not a book & I dare you to try to publish any lies about me or my father because I will so sue your ass for every thing you own you crazy bitch! Her comment here
You are a fucking liar & I do not have to stay off your blog. It is a public blog & I am the public. My father never did any thing to me but you & Terry abused me physically, emotionally & mentally. You lie about my dad & me so I don't believe any of the other sit you have posted either. Dr Snow probably never even touched you either! I know when you asked me if he touched me you wanted me to say yes so that you could of sued him for more money! But he never touched me & he probably never touched you either because you are a liar!
Also you have no right to call your self a "MOTHER"...lol What a joke! You don't know the first thing about being a mother! I don't have a mother!
More twisted lies from you...If I had any anger issues it is because I had to have a mother like you that let her boyfriend beat me all the time with a belt! This is why I do not speak to you! All the lies you say. This is why I will never speak to you again no mater what the circumstances are! I am far better off with no mother! If you thought any thing of your children you would not make up lies about them to get back @ their fathers! I love my dad but I can not say the same thing to you! I have NO MOTHER! Her comment here
Mom you are a idiot & have no clue what you are talking about...Dad never had a video camera. Parties at dad ya when he was at work. Not really much he could do about it I was a wild child I admitted that. Parties at my friends houses too. Some nights I didn't even call him to tell him where I was or when I would be home. Dad tried to make me stay in my room once but I closed the door & jumped out my window & took off with my friends. That was when I broke the flower box from hanging off it. At least dad never beat me & abused me in any way like you let your boyfriend do! Oh & dad did tell the police to take me once when I came home all drunk because he was fed up with me & they told him "No Mr B you don't want to do that" I remember sitting in the police car telling them you can't arrest me I am only 15...lol You are so screwed up I never bought any video camera from dad! I did how ever buy one from Wacky Weekly's. There was family videos made & yes my husband & I did have sex on the video camera & we thought we had recorded over it but there was one little bit that didn't get recorded over & it was embarrassing as hell. I have nothing to hide. But you can't even get you stories right. You twist every thing all around making up lies! Get your stories right & tell the truth or shut the hell up!!!
That isn't a suicide letter you stupid bitch...I do not remember writing it but I am 90% sure if I did it was written when I lived with you. Terry is @ fault for me not learning to play guitar when I was younger. Dad was going to buy me a electric guitar & terry said oh no she can learn on this acoustics that I couldn't even fit my arms around. Do you know how many times I was depressed while living with you? Of course you don't because you didn't give a shit that you boyfriend Terry was always beating me & burning troys fingers on the kerosene heater. He beat me in front of friends too. My saying that I didn't have a very good life in that note would of been because I lived 14 years of my childhood with you. Who are you kidding I would of never moved back home with you. I left you house to get away from the abuse. I ran to my safe place witch was with my dad. Also you can not copyright a not that I wrote especially when I didn't write it to you. I could sue you ass & take what little you have just for posting it on your blog. Also it was not Gerry Springer it was the Steve Wilkos Show & I wanted you & I to get the lie detector but we know why you wouldn't do it because you didn't want me to prove on live tv that you were nothing but a ling psychopath.
This is the letter that my mom posted & said I wrote. If I wrote it then it is mine to post!
Been dealing with other issues...Like having a dog bit my 11 year old son & the owners not taking responsibility & keeping there dogs tied so i will be going to court about that thanks to our Forest rangers for helping out here in N.B. I also have videos of the dogs on the roads & in my yard...I am so sick of people that just are disrespectful, lie & do not give a shit about others... What is wrong with people where is the human nature & kindness gone??
This is partly reply to a comment I had posted to a video on youtube Breaking the Silence: Children's Stories that I think is disrespecting to all men...To let a man hit you you have to have real low self esteem...I do not feel sorry for some one that stays in a relationship that a man an would hit them...No man would hit me for the simple fact that I would not stand for it & I would hit back & he would be seeing stars...What is wrong with you women?? Do not be week & do not result to lies for payback...Some do not like my way of thinking but at least I think for my self & I do not lie & I think that any one that does result in using lies to get even are week self loathing individuals...Grow some balls & take responsibilities for your own mistakes...Do not let a man push you around but then just the same do not make up lies to even the score...Have a little respect for yourself & be the stronger person...You are the one that put your self in the situation that you are in so go about it the right way...Just because you & your significant other might not be working out does that mean that he or she isn't a good father or mother?? Does that mean that there isn't some one else out there that is right for you that can make you happy & be respectful to the situation...The best thing any one can do for there child even if it doesn't work out for the parents is be respectful to the other parent & just get along for your child's sake...Stop blaming he or she for every thing & start taking half the blame for your self because like I said it takes 2 to make it & 2 to break it.Do not tell your child that the father or mother is this or that or no good...just keep those feelings to your self...You are the one that made the mistake in choosing the wrong sole mate so why is the child the one you want to make suffer?? If you are truly abused by your other then you need to learn to be strong & over power the situation & take control...Do what is best for you children not what is best for you!!Marriage is suppose to be for better or worse...You should try to work out your problems not run away from them...Unfortunately not everyone is perfect & people do make mistakes...If you can learn to forgive that you can be happy...Even all the lies that my mother has told I would for give her again if she would just get the proper help...Even though I hate my mother for all the lies that she has told weather they are because of her being vindictive or what I truly believe that she is mentally ill...Maybe bipolar disease....If she were to ask for my help I would help her...She is my mother even when she pisses me off with things that are not true...I do know I never want to be like her...Miserable, lonely & only thing on her mind is revenge against the one who betrayed her...No one is perfect & every one makes mistakes & if you realize this & learn forgiveness then you will be allot better off!!
My mother doesn't like my comments that are truthful & to the point...She want's me to sugar coat my feelings about her lies...I will not sugar coat anything!
I would like to invite all who know what I have had to deal with & other who have had to deal with the same type of thing to make comments on my mother blog to let her know that what she is doing lying, making up untrue stories is not right & will not be tolerated...
Once again you are a liar...I am the one who stopped talking to you because of you making up lies again...Leaving a comment is not harassing you...That is why it is called a comment...Little Allen was there the day you were upsetting me on the phone with your lies & before that he would hang up the phone on you...That's the day that I started smoking again because of you...I had gone 2 weeks with out cigarettes before that phone call...So thank you for all the stress that you cause me with your lies....Little Allen hates you for the lies you have said about me & his grandfather....If you don't want comments then you shouldn't have a blog...If you are going to make up lies then you are going to get comments...Live with it...Little Allen is 18 this month may be it is time that I give him the link for you blog he is old enough & see what comments he leaves you...I guarantee they will not be nice!
One more thing when I was pregnant will my first son I was 16 years old & I was very sick. I had called you to see if you would take me up to the hospital. You said no. You claim to have been a good mother but wouldn't take your daughter up the hospital. I was in tears & couldn't breath. Well I got to the hospital with out your help & had to be admitted & hooked up to breathing machines & every thing. So just another example of how lousy of a mother you were.
I remember you not wanting to drive to work because of the snow. It was me that drove you around. I didn't make any excuses I did it because you had asked me to.
First of all dads first child is none of your business...Now you saying that it wasn't long ago that I was having money problems...I take it you are talking about when I had my first child 17 years ago & you call that not long ago...Let me list the things I got from you Vacuum, Clippers & trimmers but Terry did not give me money for any of my hair dressing course. I paid for that 6 thousand dollars by the time I got it paid off so don't you dare try to take credit for my hair dressing course...Before my hair dressing course my mother inlaw bought my school books...After my hair dressing course when I decided to go back to school she also bought my books...You bought the two graduations rings...The diamond ring & the heart necklace that I gave you back the other day. So figure out what the vacuume, clipper, trimmers & the two rings cost you because I will be giving you the money in check form in the mail for them so you will not be able to say you gave me any thing...
You did not give me gifts of money... Any time that I got money from you I had did something to earn it & that was less than 10 times...I would call you & ask to borrow money for groceries & you would tell me that I was on my own now...You did not help me & I always thought that you were two faced because you would tell me about how Terrys parents fixed your car, gave you money for the house & what ever else...Any time we need money we had to ask dad or Allen's parents...Allen's mother was more my mother than you will ever be...Would you like me to list the stuff Allen's parents bought us & the kids. It makes what you gave me only pennies... But you trying to make your self look like you did lots for me...You did shit for me...
I do not remember Terry ever bringing my friends & I out to eat...I do how ever remember him making my friend watch & not let her leave while he was beating me...
I never said my father jumped on me & he never touched me in a sexual way you sick beotch...You are so sick in the head...I would love to ram a bar of soap in your sick mouth like you use to let Terry do to us...
Also you telling me not to swear on the blogs by calling you a lying whore but you were calling Terry's girlfriend Bitchey Bonnie in my car!
Lets not forget that you always had Troy going to that foster lady's house Emdelle...Plus he was working...He was never home with you for a while there...
Oh & lets not forget that you said Terry stole all the money out of your bank account that you said gram gave you when you split up...What was it a couple thousand dollars...
To my surprise I was amazed that my mother only had one out burst. She made a comment about my father not having his income tax papers there with him yesterday. Well dad was not appointed a free lawyer paid by the courts like my mother was so he was not aware that he needed these documents because his income has not changed. My dad had to represent him self. He has spent way too much over the years for lawyers & in the end it has done him no good but put him in debt. In the past he would go to court, pay a lawyer for a judge to make a decision & for my mom to breach the court order & nothing is done about it. After we left the court dad went straight home & found the papers & we brought them back to the court. Well mom had bought me a necklace with a heart on it before I was on speaking terms with her & I didn't want it in the first place but she gave it to my gram to give it to me so I just excepted it. I broke it in peaces & tossed it to her on the floor before we went into the court room. Her little court appointed lawyer said for me not to be so immature but she did not have to deal with my mother for 35 years & has no idea what I have had to put up with. She should of told her client to stay the hell away from us but nothing was said to my mother when she made her comment to my father. Double standards I tell you. I am not even sure that she knew that I was the daughter of that mental case that was her client.
Before I went into the court room the bailiff was a jerk. I asked him a simple question & he was rude. Not like the last bailiffs for the last time we were in court were polite & understanding. This one we had yesterday I think that he thought he was god or something. Police treat people with respect what gives this bailiff the right to be rude when I was asking a legit & simple question. Teacher's teach you to ask questions. I am tired of being crapped on & I am not putting up with it! Think I might put a complaint in about this guy!
When the jerk bailiff was using the metal detector on me mom was right in my face in front of me so I took off the diamond ring she had bought me a long time ago at Christmas & handed it to her & told her that I didn't want it to take it back. She just looked at me for a second & i said take it I don't want it you can hawk it or some thing. Then she took it.
Unfortunately I still have the graduation rings she gave me but I am going to figure out how much they cost & in the new year some time I will mail her the money for these so I can say that I bought them myself because I do not want any thing from her. I do not want any thing from a liar.
Oh I suppose you have to be your younger son for swearing to be appropriate...You sons post to me has plenty of swearing to me plus disgusting sexual comments in his post...Where is he learning that from? His comment is here: Your son post to my blog
Plus msn calling me a fat virgin slut & they are your words when it was my daughter on the computer: Your post to my msn but blamed it on your son. Just for the record you can not be a virgin & a slut at the same time!
It is OK for him to swear at me because he is mad because I am telling the truth but you are saying my language is because you are a liar, a mental & physical abuser & let you husband physically abuse me & I have no respect for you what so ever for what you have put me through for 20 years...Just because you are my biological mother or grand mother doesn't give you the right to be called a mother or a grand mother...You have never acted like a mother or a grand mother...You are a parasite that just will not go away...If you don't know what a parasite is look it up...Dad has nothing to do with my blog so why would I post his name...I posted my name & that is good enough...Even the most stupid person can figure it out...Oh I forgot you are not dealing with a full deck...You think that love should be bought & manipulated to your own advantage...Sorry not in my lifetime...You can not buy me or manipulate me & that is your whole problem...When are you going to get it I don't care about you, I don't need you in our lives, I don't want you in our lives...You are a parasite! See you in court tomorrow!
Me telling the truth about my life is not a blackmail. Asking you to stop being a lying whore is not a blackmail.You being a liar & lying in court is called perjury & is a crime. You lying about my dad & myself is discrimination of character & is a criminal offense.Your the one who needs help. You go get some therapy from preferably some one who is not a quack this time! Rot in hell liar!
When I was living at home I had a bank account. My mother took my money out of it & bought me a dresser that she still has & would not give to me. Also my sister inlaw let me borrow her negatives for the pictures of my wedding that she had taken & mom wanted to use them & has never given them back. That was over 10 years ago & when ever I ask her about them she says she can not find them. That is call stealing. Why would she want to keep these. They are not hers to keep they belong to my sister inlaw & she had asked for them back but I had to tell her that my mom said she can not find them in the mess of her house. They have picture of myself & my dad on there too.
The fact is mom is old enough to know that when you borrow something you are suppose to give it back & if you don't that is the same as stealing.
Of course I am reading your blog. I have to see what garbage lies you are writing. Not once have you said you were sorry for allowing that Bastard Terry for abusing us. You try to put off what Terry did to us off on to dad. Dad never did any thing but be a good loving father to us. If I had of realized when I was a kid I should of went to the police back then & reported Terry for abusing me. I should of sued Terry for abusing me. You can take your birthday wishes & give them to some one else. Yes & that bathing suit did look good on me.Their sister is the one who taught me how to strut my stuff & I did it well...
Funny I thought it was my home but that's just goes to show that you priorities were not your kids. That any Tom Dick or Harry can move into the house & it would of been more their house that your kids. You ask how many men would want this? Once again shows that you having men was more important than you kids. Did you ask me if I wanted a border that would be sleeping in your bed with you & abusing me & Troy? If that abusive Bastard didn't live in what I thought was my home than I wouldn't have moved out. I never did & never will have any respect for him because of what he did to me. But you blame dad for me moving with him but it was your fault for letting a abusive Bastard into our lives!
My house is my kids house & that is the way it should be for any parent. The kids come first. Just goes to show that you haven't got a clue what being a parent means.
You are so twisted. I never wrote any such letter. You are such a liar. I am so done with you & my blog will stay up for ever. I will post my hand writing on my blog so post this so called letter!
That day I was in your driveway when you were sitting in my car you said that you were thinking about suicide. I told you not to talk so stupid! Well guess what I don't care what you do any more. I will not shed any tears for you at all!
I do not recall dad ever being mad at me. He didn’t have anything to be mad at me for I was just a little girl. Just your sick mind making up stuff.We were not watching scary movies all the time. Some of my favourite movies I watched at my dad’s house were Secrete Admire, Desperately Seeking Suzan & Who’s that girl, ET, Gremlins. I watched scary movie’s at my friend’s house all the time when I was living with my mother. I watched soaps all the time while living with my mother.I never came home from dads talking about violent movies.
In 1986, when you went on vacation to Kitchener, that would of made me 12 years old. That is the year that Terry got you to bring me back a vibrator. I was not left to care for Troy at dad’s house while he went drinking. But when you think about it I was baby sitting him all the time when I lived with you. Also dad never jumped on me & hurt me. Where do you come up with this shit. Are you on crack?
There was no adult sex movies at dad’s house but I use to watch them at your house with my friends & I made Troy stay in his bedroom so he couldn’t see them. Sorry I was only 12 years old being made to watch my down Syndrome brother all the time. I wasn’t made to read any hand book on Down syndrome kids. You’re the one who had the movies in your house, Sex Boat & Taboo & the Lacy Ladies. We were not drinking beer at dads.
(I just looked up the taboo movie & gross me out. I can not find the exact movie but the taboo movie series are about mother-son incest) Why did you keep this movie? That is sick & I didn't realize that was what it was about when I was younger.
Terry should have shut the fuck up. My dad was none of his business & he had no right to start arguments with my dad & making my dad leave with out us. Terry was not our father even though he thought he had the right to discipline us using the belt & burning Troy’s fingers on a kerosene heater to show him it was hot. He had no right to get in a fist fight with me because I didn’t want to do the dishes & he wouldn’t let MJ leave & made her watch him beat me. At your house I was always the one that was stuck doing the house work all the time. The only one who hurts your children is you “Mother”.
There you go again making up stories. I already said it earlier in my blog the reason for me not going to my dad’s house was because I was board out there & I wanted to go to the beach everyday. My friends & the guy that I like lived near us. You know the neighbours boy. Duh!
Dad never use to air his problems to me like you are trying to say. Dad never said any thing about the money he gave you. I do not remember dad ever saying that you wanted to have an abortion & if I was 13 years old I think I would remember this if that were true. I do how ever remember you saying that Aunt M. said something of this same nature to me but once again I do not remember Aunt M. saying that.
Now you making up stories about my Karate instructor…My god what is wrong with your head. I wasn’t the only one that went to Karate at nights & I should of stuck it out instead of quitting because I was more interested in stupid boys. My marks were always poor at school because I had no interest in it. That had nothing to do with Karate. You had me in swimming lessons & that was at night. Were the swimming instructors up to no good too?
Yes I took change from the dresser that Terry was using. It wasn’t his dresser. That bedroom set was there before Terry. He use to beat me with the belt & abuse me. He owes me more than the little bit of change I took to go to the store to buy candy with my friends! He took my happy childhood away buy abusing me every chance he got & interfering with my relationship with my father!
Now for you saying I use to steal your things. Your bathing suit. I use to wear it all the time & then you finally gave it to me. You didn’t even have the body to wear it back then. You would have had fat falling all out of it everywhere. My daughter takes my stuff all the time. I go to use my make-up & it not in my purse where I left it. That’s what it is to have a daughter. Just face it you should of never had kids.
I do not remember you taking me to see any minister. And if you had of I would of told him what a abuser you & your husband was. I do not know how many time’s I have to say it my dad never hurt me in any way shape or form. You should of protected us from being abused by your boyfriend/x-husband Terry.
If you had people contact you then they were other parents that lie & brain wash their kids against the other parent also.
You say I am running down the Goffs! Telling the truth how they raised a abuser is running them down? You told me that Terry’s own father told you he was a lazy looser & to give him the boot! Was that another lie you told me? Helping get the money taking away no that was all your doing. You gave up the money willingly. Where is the child support that you should have been paying dad for when I was living with him?
I don’t know who Karen Johnson is , but Diana Thompson is the nosey ugly fat whore that lived across the road. I would not doubt for a minute that she was touching Troy when she was baby sitting him!
Dad never let me drive his car. I use to steal his car & I never in my life rolled a car! However I think you are getting mixed up again. When I lived with you Me & my friend D. went for a drive out to Mispec beach & her boyfriend & his friend who was driving put us in the ditch on the side because he couldn’t drive for crap & obviously he was driving too fast! So I would like to know what the hell you are talking about! You have to be doing crack or something. Mom there is something wrong with you head. You need to go get check out by a doctor that isn’t a quack. I will even go to the doctor with you because there is something wrong with you that you get things all mixed up & twisted unless you are really just a liar.
If you love your daughter you would stop with the lies & get real mental help.
This bathing suit is similar to the bathing suit my mother was complaining that I use to always wear that was hers.
Bla Bla Bla...Like I said all you think of is Money...Those books are sure helping you get a job aren't they? Where is you big paying job? Reading all those books are not doing a dam bit of good for you...Do you think those doctors & lawyers would be where they are at with out taking a course...No they wouldn't so unless you are planning to take a course you are wasting your time & your life...The books they use in their courses have to be approved to be used not just any book you see in the stores...You are such a hypocrite calling me a liar...Remember I am the one that said I would take a lie detector test but you don't seem to want to take one...I wonder why that is maybe because your a liar...Lying come second nature to you...You do it so well...I am too tired to waste any more of my time on you tonight...Goodnight "Parrot"...
What ever “Parrot”…Keep reading those books…Why don’t you go read some books on How to keep a husband, how to be a good mother & How to not be a liar…
Book sellers love you...Do you believe everything you read...They'll keep feeding you shit as long as you keep buying there books...To bad you don't know how to think for your self...But you'll always just sound like a parrot to me...
Oh Little Boy Blue are you crying wolf again…Would you like to know my surprise? I am having a huge custom advertisement of my blog made for my car so where ever I go people will see my blog address…You calling me a devil “Isn’t that the Pot calling the Kettle Black!” If I am going to hell I will see you there…There is a spot all set a side for you in the liars section of hell….
Bla Bla Bla...Money Money Money...That is all you think about...Me sound like my father I highly doubt it...Just goes to show that you don't even know dad at all...Dad is too good for a whore like you...Don't you have some doctor you should be trying to go to bed with...I admit that I am a Bitch & I am not some one you want on your bad side...Well I have some family pictures to scan...Have a great day! lmao
Stupid dad never did a dam thing & you can not sue me for telling the truth. My blog is about my life of a abusive mother & her abusive border/boyfriend/husband. How ever on the other hand I can sue you. I am willing to do what ever it takes for the shit you have put me through. You are the one who is a liar. After Christmas your the one who's going to get a big surprise. Also I never cut my self to hurt my self you stupid bitch. I carved initials into my ankle of a guy I liked with a needle...Big deal I wasn't the only one who did it...A form of tattooing myself...Oh & that is really funny that you being too stupid to find a job is now my fault...You are too funny...lol
I will how ever see you in the court room in Nov...Oh happy birthday to me...Is that why you picked November for the court date...Hope you chock on a chicken bone!
"The world is a dangerous place to live; not because of the people who are evil, but because of the people who don't do anything about it." - Albert Einstein -
The Angry Daughter - PAS Parental Alienation Syndrome
