I was born & raised in Saint John New Brunswick Canada...I could not have asked for a better dad, I wouldn't want any other dad...When I was little I remember my mom telling me that I would want to play with her ornaments & dad would let me & I guess I use to break them accidentally of course...Mom would always tell me how he let me play with them & that I broke them...Her good expensive ornaments... Well in grade one is when things went bad for mom & dad, so dad moved out & no matter what mom said she couldn't make me turn against my dad so it has been 33 years since I was born so I sagest mom stop trying to turn me against my dad because it isn't going to happen...Don't get me wrong mom wasn't all bad there were some good memories but too few... With dad my brother & I came first & with mom well after dad left she went all wired...Instead of being a good mother & just dealing with the break up, getting over it & moving on she had only one thing one her mind & that was to turn my down syndrome brother & I against my dad...This will never work with me & she hates me for that because I will not believe & go along with her lies...Even though she has kidnapped my brothers mind she can not kid nap his heart... I do wish I could have a relationship with my mom but how can I when she lies not only about my dad but about me...Just because I wouldn't go along with her lies she decided to make up some lies about me...What type of mother does that...For the life of me I can not even begin to understand how a mother or parent can do that to a child... When I was a little girl & still even now all I wanted was for my mother to just be a mother...I am sorry that dad leaving you cause you such mental disorder that you can not seem to grasp or hold on to reality...But every thing that comes out of your mouth is hurtful lies & how could you expect me to just stand there & let you do it...You could of had my help now that you going through another separation but lying & manipulating are more important to you than your own children...I can see that in your youngest son you already are brain washing him...It is not right no matter how things ended...If you ever decide to get real help maybe then I will talk to you again but if not then I guess we had our last words already...

Monday, 9 October 2006

The reason for the divorce & life after the divorce...

The reason for the divorce was my dad cheated on my mom & it did end Badly...So he moved out I was only in grade 1...One of the time that my dad was there my mom had my grand mother my dads mom in the closet so that she could try to get my dads own mother mad at him this is the way my mother's mind works...So he was moved out & I'll I would ever hear was you father & his girlfriend got our power , phone etc turned off, you father is drinks too much...you father is a alcoholic...This is what I heard my whole childhood...Also when they were still together she went around to different places bad mouthing him...No wonder he cheated on her...He left her the house the furniture etc all he took was the station wagon with he didn't have for long because my mom had the second set of keys & my uncle who I love & miss witch will remain nameless went to my dads house & stole the station wagon back & gave it to my mom, witch means my dad had nothing & had to start over...So mom had everything & me & my brother...She will say oh she is the one that got the down payment for the house but my father is the one who paid the mortgage & furnished it & bought the groceries until they split up...I remember her having one of my uncles friends over & i am pretty sure she slept with him...Then their was the pizza guy well I thought he was ok until he spanked me & he had no right to lay a finger on me he wasn't my dad...Then there is the boarder that moved in...It wasn't long before he went from boarder to boyfriend...Well that is when the nightmare got worse...Here was this man who moved in & like took over spanking me with the belt...I was made to do all the house work...He made my friend MJ watch as he beat me with the belt because I didn't want to do the dishes one time...So now I had my mother & her new boyfriend bad mouthing my dad...My dad would come to get me & my brother some time he wouldn't be there at the exact time that they arranged & her boyfriend would meddle in where he had no right to & argue with my dad until my dad would leave with out us...I hated the boarder boyfriend so bad...I remember taking off one time & hiding in the woods & laying down in the snow wishing I would die because I hated him so much & I didn't want to go back but I got too cold & had to go home... I remember my dad throwing a flower pot at her boyfriend...I took more beatings from boyfriend with the belt than I can remember & there was nothing my dad could do about it my mom had custody...Dad had us on his medical & he paid for child support I think it was like $600 a month with I don't agree with and I will say why i don't agree with it later...So my mom's boyfriend at the time snooped in my bedroom & found & read my diary...This is the same guy who burned my down syndrome brothers fingers on the kerosene heater...Then him & my mom went away some where & when they came back it had been her boyfriend's idea to buy me a vibrator...I think I was like 13 years old...It was like what the hell...I can see if it was my mom that read my diary & thought I needed a vibrator but it was him...This was so "not" his business to do...He use to also tease me about getting boobs & pinch them...Like oh you are getting boobs...That was totally unappropriated...Then he paid to put me into Karate well that was his mistake because I use it on him & I kicked him in the private witch he did deserve...He had no kids & he had no right trying to take that role in our lives witch he failed at badly...

The time that my brother did spend with my dad was great...we never wanted to go home to mom but we had to...When we were with my dad he always took us places like the beach, for walks & to my grams...I never once doubted his love for my brother & I...I think my mom use to get mad when my dad bought us stuff...She treated it like a competition...I know dad wasn't doing it to compete with her that he bought us a lot of stuff it was probably more out of guilt because he couldn't be with us all the time...I remember he bought me a record that was by Red Sovine It had the song daddy's girl witch I use to listen to over & over...I think that use to make my mom mad & soon that record disappeared with out a trace...I know mom was jealous of how much we loved our dad & I think she was jealous of me in general...I know mom must of done some thing to my record but guess what mom I downloaded it & I can listen to it when ever I want!

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The Angry Daughter - PAS Parental Alienation Syndrome

The Angry Daughter - PAS Parental Alienation Syndrome